HOCUS POCUS

And yeah, it is about my job…

Kinda feel that my current jobload is more than I can handle, more than I suppose to get in my current job level, and for sure more than what I am getting paid for… But maybe it is just my feeling coz everyone feel the same..

Quite an extreme feeling I experienced yesterday, because of a good year end review from my next level boss, but just few moments after that he scolded me for a very insignificant stuff (in my opinion) and I have a very good reason not to do that stuff…

Anyway, in that kind of situation, I am not kind of people that can keep quite and accept whatever my boss said. I think it is necessary to react appropriately to explain the situation and follow up with some action to clear the air. I did say “no” to my boss, and till now I am still wondering if I am doing the right thing, but I hope the action that I did right after that can really make him understand… finger crossed…

Anyway to boost my self confidence and self worthiness (and not to mention for celebrating narcissism ;P), I would like to share my bosses comment in my year end review…

Direct Boss comment :
Hamid has performed positively to all the challeges presented to him. Being in the job for 1 year, he has showed great initiative and autonomy.He still needs developement in organization awareness and integration to work more cohesively with process and production.

Next level Boss comment :
Hamid demonstrated his good capability with positive attitude even though he is one year experienced engineer.In 2009, big contribution is expected to make breakthrough in ViPower technology and to develop himself technically for personal point of view.

Pretty good huh? for sure there is always room for improvement… and the “breakthrough” expectation is a huge challenge… I hope that I can survive this year… another finger crossed…

Lots of random thoughts are now passing thru my head, and I don’t know why, I kinda feel tired lately. Well, I am maybe not really fit due to usual March-April syndrome of rainy to hot season transition, where we can experience two seasons in a day… My body just can’t stand it…  I used to have asthma when I was a kid and this period was the time when I would get my asthma attack. It was somehow cured as I’m growing up, but still I got sick during this time…

There was a reshuffle in my office, where I am ended up in new department and a new boss. On top of that, my job loads are also doubled now. I know that I should have taken it positively, because it means that they believe that I can handle new and bigger responsibilities. However, it is always easier said than done. Maybe, I just need sometimes to adapt… hopefully…

I’ll be back for holiday since next Thursday until early April. My office needs to be closed for 2 weeks with no production. It is not a good news, but in contrary, for me it is a much needed holiday. It is also mean that I will have no more annual leave for this year and have to take unpaid leave if necessary. But I just don’t care, I like holiday, who doesn’t?

So now, I am counting every second until next Thursday to go back home. There will be so much pressure to finish all my jobs before the holiday. But it will be okay, as I have seen the light in the end of the tunnel. Till then, I am just trying to stay alive….

by Robert Frost

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Note :
I’ve just realised that the education system that I have been through for about 18 years not putting so much emphasis on language and literature… poor thing that I am actually quite interested in poem and such stuff… I mean in reading and analysing it, not in writing it…

Anyway, I found a very interesting poem with a very tricky hidden meaning ( I did googling to find the "true" meaning, but the deeper I dig, more confused I become), and it also lead me to the fact that this poem is a 4th grade assignment in some countries… yes, 4th grade, when I was still watching "ksatria baja hitam"… oh well…

I know its kinda sad to glorify the past…

But hell yeah… I was great…

It has been 1 year and 1 month since I have been working in my current company, and till now, I am still like my job (or may be even love it, am I?) There are so many reasons why I like my job, but doesnt matter how many reasons I have, I myself need a proof. I believe that when we like what we are doing we will eventually get reward that we can be proud of. This is because even when you are an extreme slacker (like myself?) but if you like what you are doing, you will do and try to make the best of it.

As a second chapter of my previous post. Here I got another one to celebrate :

Well, it is just a simple recognition, not like an employee of the quarter or the year. But it makes myself believe that I like my job. There is another certificate that I got thou :

This one is a certificate for a team project. Well actually I am still not getting what I want to get, a promotion… hahaha… may be I must wait "long-long" before it come…

There is something wrong in my blood

and its getting me bored

but they said only boring people get bored

 

There is something wrong in my gene

and it makes me think

thats why I commit so many sins

Dont take life too seriously, people said… But for me, there are few things that I take seriously, one of them is cooking

I do like cooking, due to the fact that it is relaxing. It also needs creativity and not to forget brave. Brave is needed because you should not think too much to mix all the ingridient and dont be afraid if the result will be screwed up. Well, if it is, you will always find the way to fix it up, and if you still dont find the way, it also depends on who you are cooking for, as taste is also subjective. Since I’m cooking for myself, so I have no problem with it…

As now is fasting month and I need to do sahur, I find no other prefect time to "showcase" my talent. But of course, I cant do it in working day coz I’ll be "zombified" in the office later. So I can only do it in the off day. One of the menu that I cooked and manage to take the picture is below. I call it "Mix Chicken-Vegie Fried Rice"

The display is appealing, isnt it? Dont say anything before you taste it, because it will blow your mind away, I do mean in positive way…

Well, I put lots of vegetable there because I just get my full medical check up, and the result requires me to do so  The vegetable is abundance, but then I realise the fried rice is oily as well, which is not so good… there is always a trade off, isnt it?

OK then, this is the first time that I show my own selfmade food. Hopefully there will be another showcase.  If the food is enticing you enough and you just cant resist to have one, you can contact me to negotiate the price, and I will cook for you… call me!!!

Again, a very long hibernation till I’m writing again. But anyway, having a blog should not give us any pressure to write frequently and constantly. Blog is personal, and how often we want to write something on it is also a personal matter. Having said that, when we dont write so often, something that we write must be important and meaningful. So no pressure guys…

Well, for an update I am still working in same company till now. I have been working there for more than 6 months and so far so good. As a matter of fact, I like my job, if not love it. At very least, my job is related to what I have learned in school. More than that, I am doing a little bit of everything. It is challenging and exciting at the same time, and for sure there are lots of thing that I need to learn.

So, what is the meaningful thing that I want to write here? what do I mean with the title above? Well, I believe that when we are doing something that we like, we will do it better and eventually get some rewards from it. It is actually too short to get the reward in six months, and what I have obtained is actually not quite significant. But still, it is not so wrong to celebrate of what I have achieved below :

Hopefully, the next six months, I will get something more than this, which is a promotion… hahahaha…

Heal Yeah, I’m writing again!!! So many times I had been thinking to write here, but what I was doing is not even close to opening the Write Post page. Well, a lot has been happening since my last post, the major difference is I’m no longer student rite now, I have graduated and currently working in the same place where I was doing my attachment/internship.

Everything seems working well, and it does. What can I ask more? But I’m just a human who have never been satisfied. There is always something here and there that I hope can be better, but even if it does, another hope of getting another thing better will come out. So, for now, I’m quite happy with my life.

Anyway, I was just coming back from a reunion dinner+supper with my long lost junior high school friends and it was fun. Well, it was so amazed me thinking about what we were and what we are now. It is like yesterday when four of us using a blue and white uniform and now we are in our early 20s, and for my case I can consider myself in my mid 20s starting this year.

How time flies so fast has worried me, so that sometimes I prefer not to think about it. But again, it is better for me to realize it now, than realize it in my 30s to regret whatever I have been doing in my life. But, what should I be worried about now? Honestly I don’t know. Do I have regret? Well I have had a few, but then again, like Frankie said, too few to mention.

Maybe I shouldn’t be worry about anything. Just follow the flow of life, do what I want to do and have the best time of my life… No worries kind of life is sound fun, isn’t it? ….. Yes it is…. but after looking at the right down corner of my laptop, Sunday 3 am which mean tomorrow is Monday, and Monday is equal to dragging my self to the office…  Do I really have no worry? Hell No….!