HOCUS POCUS

"In fact, it is the only place where I know what I am doing, this is controllable… it’s SAFE" (Drew Barrymore as Lindsey: Perfect Catch)

One day, I read a banner in MRT station about school, written there “Keep in school, otherwise you have to work ". I took quite times to digest what that public advertisement supposed to mean. Why it was better to keep in school rather than going to work? Even one of my lecturer said that him, who work in university to teach, enjoy his work and getting paid, but me, suffering and have to pay. So, what did that sentence supposed to mean?

At last, I realized that advertisement was not for everyone, but for young age teenagers, where working is not the best choice for them, simply because it’s not safe for them to work. But, I wonder if that sentence still relevant for me or other people in my age? I believe that I am old enough to work. But is it really safe for me to work? Or is school the "safe" place for me? Really?

But first, what is “safe”? For me, safe means controllable. It is safe when you are know what you are doing, you can predict what to come with certain effort that you make, and you know where you are going. So, is school the safe place? Maybe it is for some people, but unfortunately it is not for me. I don’t really sure what I am doing here and I don’t know where I am going to. It is so uncontrollable for me because I really can not predict what to come, even I cannot predict whether I will pass my exam or not… Again, it is about my exam. School is not only about exam right? It is also about learning process. But again, I also have no control about things that I have to learn here…

So, is work safer? I don’t know. After all, life is something unpredictable, so it will never be safe. But I hope, in the end, it will be just right, because if it is not right, it is not the end… hmmm….

Classes will dull your mind… Destroy the potential for creative… ( John Nash : Beautiful Mind )

Yes it is, if you are genius… if you don’t need to attend the classes to get a good mark.. If you can learn the concept by yourself without attending the lectures… if you can have your tutorial done without copying from your tutor.. if and only if… you are genius…

In case you are not genius, never try to skip the classes… even worse when you don’t even try to catch up the lesson that you left behind… not enough? never do your own tutorial, yea, the tutorial solution is available in photocopy room, you just need to pay… and the worst is only have two days to prepare, even less cause you waste your time watching that "beautiful mind" movie and playing  WE… and you know that you are not genius… then you know that you will FAIL, FAIL and FAIL…

My AC Circuits and Machines, just like my friend Myra said… too bad too be true… and I just have nothing left to say….

Jet lag (aka "jetlag" or "jet-lag"), is a physiological condition which is a consequence of alterations to the circadian rhythm. Characteristic symptoms of jet lag include: Dehydration and loss of appetite, Headaches and/or sinus irritation, Fatigue, Disorientation and/or grogginess, Nausea and/or upset stomach, Insomnia and/or highly irregular sleep patterns, Irritability, Irrationality. (wikipedia) 

Last two weeks, in the midst of exam preparation, my circadian rhythm has changed. I studied all night long and slept all day long but unfortunately, all my paper in the morning shift. I tried to sleep early last night, but I couldn’t. I went to bed at 3 am, but I thought I started to sleep at 4 am or more. Then, I woke up at 7.30 am and prepared to go to school early to warm up my brain. I drunk two cup of indocafe coffee ice, hoped its bitterness can wake my eyes and my brain up. It worked for my eyes but I was not sure for my brain.

I went to school at 8.15 am; exam would be started at 9.30 am. I had fried rice for breakfast, but I couldn’t finish it (it rarely happen that I wasted my food :p). I started to review the module and tried to get as much as I can, but my brain just could not work at maximum rate, but it was ok, not too bad. I thought the caffeine started to increase my adrenaline, mostly in my heart because it beat faster.

And the exam was started. "Exam is a dialogue between you and the question maker, then you and yourself" (dragonsakura dorama quote)… And here was the dialogue between me and my self… 

Q1.a, theoretical question.. I was not sure, skip it… 1b.. Ok, 1c assembly language programming… ok, but had to recheck latter… 2a… 2b… 2c…  hardware part… it’s ok… but damn… careless… had to repeated some point… damn… my time wasted…

Almost one hour and 15 minutes passed… started to do the 3rd question… 80286 protected mode… a, b,c… had done lots of this type of problem before… it’s fine… hmm… must got full mark… but… damn again… silly mistakes.. Data segment is 10, no 11…. But thanks God, did not have to repeat entire solution… hmmm… 45 minutes left…

Last question… 4a… hardware interrupt… ha??? What??? Hardware interrupts?? Damn… I was not studying this topic at all??? OMG… it just like a thunder in the midday ( dangdut song mode :p). This type of question never came out in the pass exam… 12 marks… what?? 12!!!! Damn…. relax… just skip it first… 4b… 80386 descriptor… studied before… but i could not remember… my brain just hang… ok… I tried my best then… not perfect, but that’s all that I could remember… 4c now… 80286 virtual memory… OMG… I had not studied it also… (But now I realize that I had studied it… my brain hangs at the moment)… OMG… 25 point lost…

15 minutes left… ow, I had not done 1a… hmmm…. try to memorize… not really sure… but just answer, hopefully could gain some mark… 4a… whatever, just write, copy down the question, 1 mark is better than nothing… 4b… 4c… Invigilator: "Please Stop Writing….."…. OMG… had not rechecked programming part… no time… hopefully I was not doing some mistakes there…. and my answer book is collected by the invigilator… end of dialogue….

The moral of the story : make exam preparation according to your actual time of exam, otherwise, you will experience the exam jetlag… and never speculate… try to study everything in your note, since you never know what will be tested, of course if you have enough time to study it all… hahahahaha…

Anyway, my first paper has passed. I definitely won’t get an A, and even hard to get B since 70% is the maximum mark that I can earn in this rate, and maybe less if I do some careless mistakes. However, Alhamdulillah that it has already passed. 1 down 5 to go… next pit stop : AC Circuit and Machine…. keep wish me luck…  

How I Met Your Mother is one of a few series that I can’t hardly wait to watch every week, of course I download it illegally… upss…  It has already in its 18th episode now and the title for this episode is "Nothing Good Happens after 2 am". 

It is a romantic comedy sitcom about Ted (Josh Radnor), who tells his son and daughter about how he met their mother, and the story flashbacks to the year 2006, when he was single and quite desperate… (Just like me that’s why I like this series).

He lived together with his best friend Marshall (Jason Segal) who just proposed his one and the only girlfriend Lily (Alyson Hannigan). At that moment, Ted realized that he had better get a move on if he too hoped to find true love, then with a help from his wannabe-best friend Barney (Neil Patrick Harris), he tried to meet women. After a while, Ted met Robin (Cobie Smulders), and he believed that it was a love in the first sight, but destiny had something else in store and they tried to be friend. Ted kept trying to find his true friend with help from all of his friends.

I like this TV series because the story nails me. It is about friendship and love. I am also wondering what I will tell to my children someday, about how I met their mother… hahahaha.. I am twenty something right now, not too early to think about it rite?

At first, I thought it quite similar to FRIENDS, but it has its own strength and uniqueness. A much recommended TV series to watch with 3 stars….

resource : http://www.tv.com/how-i-met-your-mother/show/33700/summary.html&full_summary=1

If I lived in four season country, I would love April with its spring season, when snow was melting, new leaves were starting to grow, and flowers were blooming. But since I am here, country with a tropic climate, it is hard for me to love April with its transition season. It was windy rain yesterday but damn hot today and my body just can’t resist that drastic change, then I am getting sick.

When I was a kid (I am growing up now ) I used to have asthma, and it was like a routine that every March and April or September and October I would see the doctor. But I don’t know how, my asthma was magically cured, and now when the season come I will not in suffer in asthma, but I am still getting sick. It is just a flu, a heavy one sometimes but not that bothering compare with asthma, but it will be very annoying if you have to study all night long with your flu.

And here I am, study all night long with my flu. Exam has been started last week but my first paper will be on Wednesday, which means I have to start to study more intense right now. But again, this flu absorbs my stamina and I just can’t get my 100% efficiency… How could I love April then? ( hahahaha…. you who know me better will think that it’s just my denial, it is not because of April, it is just me and me… hahahaha )

 Below is my timetable. I have to face 6 papers and the time arrangement is bad. I have to face 3 papers in 4 days, OMG, and two of those papers are Math and analog, which I hate the most… and all are in morning shift and my brain just can’t work in the morning… OMG…. so just wish me luck, k!!!