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I don’t know what I really feel about him (definitely it is not romantic kind of feeling ) but it always feels good to have him around, coz it makes me feel that I am not alone. He always said that we have nothing in common, but I believe that we have few things in common, but if we really have nothing in common, maybe those differences are what make us close to each other.

It is kind of a turning point for me first time I met and got close to him in high school. It was the time when finally, in the place where I felt alienated, I met someone who I feel fit in. It was not stop only between me and him, but those people came one by one. Those people where I felt comfortable with, and with those people, we created a circle. It maybe small, but it was deep indeed. Some others students maybe considered us as a “freak” circle or something, but I didn’t really care.

We even created a family line from that circle. It mainly consist people from biology team and English speaking club where he involved in. It triggers a smile in my face every time I recall those memories. I remembered the way we recruited students for biology team. We were not really recruit them on what they wrote in the paper, but more on how the answered it. We accepted those who more or less had the same way of thinking with us ( What a sin )

But now, things are different. We are not in high school anymore, and most of us are separated in different places. I was hoping that I will still have him around longer, but the reality is different from what I expected. I believe that he have made some mistakes few years back, which make this unexpected thing happens now. But anyway, the unexpected is what changes our live…

Now he has to go, start all over again to and pursue what he say as his truly passion. 5 years wasted is something that I regretted, but I am hoping it is for him to be a better person, and also as a lesson to learn for me and other people around him. The past was sweet; the present is maybe breaking our heart but it is the future that is really matters…

Goodbye my dearest brother… Everything will not be the same again here without you and I am surely gonna miss you…

As you know, I have done my 22 weeks Industrial Attachment last semester. That’s the reason why I never update my blog Anyway, there were lots of stories and experiences that I earned during the attachment that I cant write here. But hopefully, the last email below that I send to my Boss and colleague can summarize all of those stories…

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Hi All,

It feels like yesterday when the first time I came to this office, tried to know you all one by one, and make myself used to the work environment. But now, I am already in my last day of IA, which means I will no longer will meet you all every day, create recipes everyday, and the most important is I will no longer come late in the morning meeting

It has been a great experience for me, and the memories that I found here will definitely stay for a very long time in my mind. Lots of thing that I have learned here, but I believe that there are still many things that I have to learn more. Thanks for all your help, all you patience to teach me, and all your knowledge that has been shared. Special thank goes to Low Kin Wai and Ruchi who have help me a lot during my attachment.

I also realize that during my attachment I must have done many mistakes. I would like to ask for your forgiveness for any mistakes that I have done. Hopefully, I can make all those mistakes become lessons to learn that I will never repeat in the future. Once again, I would like to say thank you very much for everything. I hope we can meet each other again in the future, and maybe somehow, work together again.

Best Regards,

Hamid