HOCUS POCUS

This semester is done. The exam result was announced yesterday. Honestly, the result was disappointing. This semester exam result is the worst exam result I have ever got for the last 6 semester (Please keep in your mind that even for another semester my result was never really good). Well, some of you maybe will think that I am bluffing, or saying that what I think is bad, maybe good for different standard or whatever. Honestly, I hate when people talk to me those thing, coz so far I think I am a very straight forward person and I always try to say the truth. But then again, that is inevitable, because they are right that we have different standard, which actually can be solved by showing them my transcript so they can judge whether it is good or bad. But as that option also not possible, so nothing I can do about it.

Actually, I shouldn’t be surprised with the result, or even, this result was expected considering how slacking I was this semester. The fact that I got no fail subject (but got a lot of almost fail subjects ) is actually the thing that I should feel glad of. Again, I am just a human which will never feel satisfied. I regret that I didn’t try harder, but it was already passed and no way to be changed.

So what can I do now? First, with this result, I have a very low chance to get what I have targeted to achieve before, so I need to make my expectation lower than before. Second, do some re-evaluation, re-planning, re-targeting or even make new strategy on how will I live my life after this. Third, not repeat the same mistakes next semester and hopefully, there are some pieces of my broken hope that I can pick up and rebuilt. I wish that I will not lose my hope coz I maybe able to survive the diet of food (will be though, thou ) but I definitely will not survive the diet of hope.

Well, should resume my life rite now, I cannot pause it too long coz I got German paper next Wed, and must be doing my FYP this holiday. I need to find the new spirit to start it again and do better. Still not sure about it as people said: lot easier said than done… hahaha…

ps : Thanks a lot for Dei, bang Rennie and especially bang Aussie to help me cope with this syndrome…. Really miss those RKB moments…